jsut aonhter bda dya..

you know those days when you;ve worked your ass off all night and have just slept for 3 hours and then gotten back to work..and then you wanna relax but you have to work it out..and then you have to go and do some other stuff..and it just goes on and on and on..and then people get sarcastic with you and dont really appreciate what you do for them and then you just are like..why..rather what am i slogging my ass off for and then its the first day of the month and your paycheck comes in and you get paid less just before festivities *christmas* and your just like where did i go wrong..why is the world conspiring against me TODAY...why why why/// and then you just get chummy at any thing that people around you say ; even if they try to pacify you.." stop treating me like a kid; stop talking ; shut your face; aaaaaaarrrrrrrrgghhhhhh " and they're like gawd your being such a kid nd your just like you dont kno wat its like and you dont know anything and blah blah blah..! then you get bruised and your having a bad day physically as well..!! wat a pain it can be..and then you just wanna screeeeeaaaammm and bang your head or slap somebody and throw something at someone or just cry..and then the tears come..and o they come...and your just angry with urself for being so stupid and being so mean and being so irritated for life being a bitch and then you realize that what am i crying for..i get my meals. i get my luxuries. i get my share of wants and needs. and then ur just crying and crying and you feel miserable for a moment like a dying phoenix but then its like a switch and from the ashes you rise to a new calmness that has set upon you and you feel like hugging someone and just crying some more as you realize that your getting frustrated for things that ...then at the end of the day you go for a shower before dinner coz you think its gonna relieve you of all the stress and tension during the day..you on the hot water but the geyser isnt working and you have to take cold water shower coz you;ve already applied soap and shampoo et al..gosh..its like its 2012 ..sheeesh...wat a day..and then you go shopping and and shop for nothing..waste of 4 hours..and then you get grief for that also..gawd..headaches...and with all this..i dunno where im gonna study next year..or do i wanna study next year..and then joyce is going away :( and  ya we all have our problemoz...

anyways..im having CAD B now..so all's well..the best way to end my day..=)
jstu aotnher rcayz yda in ym lfie..
what's up ? !